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Phase I: optimistic viewpoint

Of course my last post had a more pessimistic viewpoint. Which is mainly because I had to point out the differences between my reality and the world's reality. However, when I sit back and really take a look at my life I really don't have much to complain about. I'm in good health, I do have a job, and a car (albeit it has no A/C) and a roof over my head. My housing is a steal because I have access to internet, cable, food, washer and dryer, family, A/C, and my own room at a wonderfully low price. My mother always have a home cooked meal waiting every night. I really do not want for anything. I have good friends near-by and access to many of my favorite shopping sites. My frustration just comes from once again my lack of patience, lol. Which is more of a personal problem than anything, and something that I really should have gotten under control a looong time ago. So now I just take it one day at a time, one foot in front of the other.

Phase I

Right now I consider myself to be in Phase I of a 3 Phase Process. This phase is the struggles of my life right out of college. Phase II will be my struggles through grad school which should start either this fall (if my GRE scores come in soon enough) or next Spring. Phase III would consist of my struggles of finding a career after grad school. Right now I must say Phase I is not going to plan, lol. I envisioned that this part would of course be the hardest part but my idea of hard is quite a different picture than reality. My idea of hard is that there would be little to no trouble in finding a career in my field, getting an apartment, and a new car. Of course reality would contradict everything that I would hope. Reality is I live with my mother, have a career no where related to my field, and I am still driving my 97' Lumina, whose air compressor recently went out and my state's average daily temperature is 100 degrees before the heat index. So it is of course not the pretty picture I painted in my head.

My Faults

Ok I know everyone has their faults. However, I feel that I need to be a little more critical of mine. Mainly because I know what my faults are but I rarely do things to change them. Subconsciously I am always aware when I behave or think in a way that is remotely selfish and very inconsiderate of others, however at the time of the event I rarely try to steer down another path. I have an extreme lack of patience that can be more harmful than good. I always expect for things to happen when I feel they should happen not a moment later (sooner is always acceptable) but never later. I realize that the lack of this virtue is something that I really need to work on. Having graduated a mere three weeks ago with a double major in English and Psychology I never imagined it would take time for me to establish a new life-style for myself. Hence the lack of the patience virtue rears its ugly head. Which is in essence why I started this blog (that and to show my wonderful fashion sense :) of course).

My Start

Ok, so I'm new to the whole blogging thing, lol. I basically just copied my mother, I feel that this could definitely be a cool little outlet for me to rant and rave on. I basically determined that I would have two pages one dedicated more to the on goings of my life and one to my idea of style. I dont know how regular I will be with this but as for right now this seems to be a nice little daily activity that I could participate in.